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Loki Memoirs 41 Forgiveness, It has been a few days now since Thor had come looking for me.  Mother has been very kind to bring my meals to my room and I feel much better than I did when I was placed in the dungeons.  Even for some time I could sense she wanted to speak with me, after all that has happened I'm sure she would like to at least talk about it. One day she had come with my lunch meal and set it on my nightstand.  I grabbed hold of her left wrist and she looked me in the eyes.  "Mother, I believe you would like to speak with me," I told her plainly.  She blinked and sat at the ed

Loki Memoirs 40 Betrayal, Thor griped my form and I could only stand letting him.  I did not refuse him nor accept him, my face blank in expression.  Father saw this, I could tell he sensed something was amiss.  He waited for his eldest son to part from me, Thor looked to my face.  He could see the sadness within.   "Loki?  Did you not hear father, he said we are to stay together..." he grabbed hold of my forearms in excitement.  I had the urge to pull away from him, I felt dirty.  He was dirty to me...He lied to me.  What else has he lied to me about

Loki Memoirs 39 The loneliness, Days have turned into weeks.  I refused to accept any generosity from guards or sediments from caretakers.  I cared not what happened to myself no longer, I welcomed death willingly now.  My world had been turned upside down and I could not take it any longer.  I prayed for my sweet release from this pain in which I called life, why must I suffer when I have already endured so much. I knew not what was happening beyond my prison, for all I knew dark elves may have taken over.  Sighing, the thousands of times that I have, I came to the conclusion I was to be p

Loki Memoirs 38 The darkness, I shivered while I tried to sleep, without my frost giant form I was like any other Asgardian.  My eyes open and closed as time lapsed by, daybreak finally making its way through the thick tree canopy.  I could see my breath as I staggered to my feet.  I looked up at what little light that was coming down through a small clearing and walked gingerly toward it.  My body ached from my mindless run, falling to my knees in the sunlight. My mind made me feel as though all I had been doing all night was talking, but really I spoke very little.  The mind becomes tired after so long of internal battles and even though

Loki Memoirs 37 Confusion, "Thor?  Loki?  W-what... on Asgard are you doing!" Mother stood in the doorway slamming my door closed behind her.  We quickly separated and I tried to cover my nude chest as if it was inappropriate for a male.  She came up to me and her eyes could have killed me... "What is the meaning of this?" she gestured toward myself and Thor.  I was too flustered to respond to her, my cheeks burning on my face.  I could only stare at the floor, By all the gods in Asgard...why did she have to find out?  Why were we so stupid to leave the door unlocked? "Tell me..." she knelt down beside the bed placing her hand on my knee.

Loki Memoirs 35 After sun high, I awoke in my bed in my chambers, my shoulder wrapped carefully by a skilled healer.  Thor was dozing in the chair next to my bed. "Thor..." I spoke softly, hoping he would hear me.  He flinched and his eyes opened to see my own. "Ah...you are awake, I am glad," he gently took my hand.  He stroked his thumb over the top of it, "Loki, what had happened?  Who has hurt you?" "You would not understand Thor," I looked away from him, making sure to not make eye contact.  My eyes started to burn.  I could tell my tears were threatening to return. "Try m

Loki Memoirs 34 Mid morning, Thor had bathed in my lavatory already and was dressing in my bed chamber as I slipped into the bathing room myself to clean up.  I ran the water to a warmer than normal bath, my muscles were a bit soar.  A nice hot bath would cure me of it.  I removed my robe and slipped into the water, sitting on the underwater ledge.  It was indeed refreshing and it was just what I needed.  I sighed contently. Footsteps came up behind my left and I tilted my head slightly to see Thor standing in his full riding fatigues.  He knelt down beside me, scooping a hand ful

Loki Memoirs 27 Evening, I had woken to soft steps coming to my chamber's door, then a knock.  I looked to my portico to see it was already dark out, then my gaze went back to my door.  The knock came again. "Brother?  Are you there?  I have come to check on you," he sounded concerned.  I waved my hand at the door realizing I had to face him eventually.  Now that I was able to sleep off most of my broken heart's painful stabs, I figured now was better than any time to face Thor. He turned the door handle and peeked inside, "Oh... you were asleep?  I am sorry I woke you, I will let mother know you are not well," he made to close the door a

Loki Memoirs 22 Evening, I had spent the next few hours yelling at the walls of my room.  Even going as far as throwing items across the room, at least the things I could reach on my nightstand.  They did not travel far as my strength was limited. After a few more hours I had broken down, I shook as hot tears silently rolled down my face.  Why did my life have to be turned upside down?  Why me? A knock came to my door, I did not want to see anyone.  Especially, right at this moment.  I gave no response but the knock came again. "Go away..." I said in a low tone. "Loki... it is me... Thor," he spoke through the door. "I said.... GO AWAY